and i wonder

i find myself somewhere beyond my self
beyond matter
beyond time
nameless
peaceful and light
and i wonder if this is how death feels
then i feel it all come rushing back
this body
this name
this ego
and it is all so heavy
so
heavy
and i don't know if i can bear it
again
and i don't know how to let it go
again
and i wonder if this is how birth feels