I wasn't ready (for Benji)

I wasn't ready
when you arrived
my heart still breaking 
for the ones who came before
I cared for you
but for a while
I struggled with how to love you
and then
we started walking together 
you got me up
got me out
and we found our stride
our days together 
bound by a beautiful rhythm 
you showed me the way
showed me so many wonderful things
I wouldn't have seen on my own
and 
I wasn't ready
for how madly I found myself loving you 
for how you shared your wild heart with me
for how you trusted me
became a part of me
and
I wasn't ready
for our time to end
for you to go
so sudden
so soon
I wasn't ready 
to walk on my own
without you
I don't know which way to go
but
I walk on 
for you
even though 
I wasn't ready