we had another visit from the bobcat last night. woke up at 2am to what sounded like large claws on plywood and ducks panicking. got up and out to the kitchen garden to see what was going on. i don't usually let zane out until i know what we're dealing with but he shot past me (something he normally doesn't do) as soon as i got the door open and charged off growling and snarling to the back of the garden where the ducks are. he flushed the bobcat out toward the greenhouse end of the garden but it couldn't find its way out and zane chased it back toward the other end. i was afraid he'd be injured if he got the cat cornered between the house and the fence somewhere so i hollered at him to come to me, which he did immediately, i got him back in the house, and staal came out to make sure everything was okay. at some point in all this the cat rushed past me and found its way over the garden fence in the corner near the greenhouse. it's a good sized cat, nearly as tall as zane, and probably weighs between 20 and 30lb (zane weighs about 40lb) but even a 10lb house cat can do considerable damage to a dog if cornered and desperate. after the cat left i looked around the duck enclosure to make sure everything was alright. i wanted to open things up and look inside to make sure no one had been injured but since i didn't see any damage to the outside and since the flashlight was just panicking the ducks all over again i decided it would be better for me to let them be until morning rather than risk them injuring themselves just to make myself feel better. took a couple hours to get back to sleep but i finally achieved a sort of a half-sleep until morning. the ducks took some time to settle too and every time they got a little worked up i'd be wide awake again. zane kept watch for a while, lying beside me on my pillow, looking out the window into the garden toward where the ducks are. he's a good dog.
what he lacks in size he makes up for in spirit
everyone was fine this morning, happy to be let out to stretch and flap and splash around.
so long i walked in doubt and uncertainty lost questioning but it was not the universe's job to name me as if i were something apart from it as if i were not the hummingbird or the sunflower or the dust of the earth or the wind
or the rain or the setting sun or the shining light
in my love's clear blue eyes which is also the sky i am god's forgetting of who he is and his remembering again and again in an endless game
of hide-and-go-seek as he opens his eyes
and looks upon himself from infinite perspectives
they stumble about
like happy little feathered drunks bumping and jostling and stepping
on each other
while they carry on noisily
no they are not graceful except
when they are swimming or in the case of the indian runner when they are running but
full of a kind of grace they are
endearing contagiously joyous benign peaceful earnest and so i think it most important work to idle watching ducks as often as possible
i've slowly been picking my way through getting the duck shed built. i've got the framing pretty much done now. like i said before, it's built out of some really gnarly lumber, but even though it isn't pretty it's quite sturdy.
sitting in the front yard
with you in the cool of the evening drinking in the green of the grass watching ducks make merry mischief and counting subarus near as i can figure this must be heaven
each day with you is a gift. i can't imagine anywhere i'd rather be or anyone i'd rather be with. i'm so very happy here, sharing in this life with you and i hope you have found some happiness in it as well. happy birthday, my love.
i helped staal get a coat of paint on the feed barn. we couldn't find the exact colors we were looking for so we bought some that were close and staal worked his magic mixing up some custom colors. i love what he came up with. it's bright and cheerful and it's one more thing that makes this place feel pleasant and cared for and alive.
here are a few before and after shots...
after we finished the stucco and before we painted, staal poured a little slab in front of the door. the door is just wide enough to accommodate the wheel barrow and the slab makes rolling in and out nice and smooth.
the building is now very tight and very sound thanks to all of staal's hard work. and i think it looks pretty spiffy too.