Tuesday, June 19, 2018

moth

yesterday evening i met a moth (Antheraea polyphemus).  she was in the orchard garden on the ground in some leaves and garden debris under a big oak.  she flapped her big, tattered wings but couldn't get into the air, just flapped and flopped on the ground.  i was a little concerned she would beat herself to death so i picked her up.  she quickly settled down on my hand.  i tried to entice her out of my hand several times but she would just crawl back up and cling tighter with her feet.  so we just sat together for probably 30 minutes and i tried to be quiet enough to hear what she had to say. 


we sat in the greenhouse for a while (staal and zane joined us).  it got to be bedtime for the ducks so staal volunteered to take care of them while i sat with the moth.  when staal went into the house to get some bedtime rice for the ducks i got a clear image of the meditation hut in my mind so moth and i went back out to the garden and sat in the meditation hut.  after a few minutes in the meditation hut she started to vibrate her entire body and then suddenly took flight.  i watched her fly high over some live oaks and disappear.


 thank you, moth.  we wish you well.

Saturday, June 2, 2018

and i wonder

i find myself somewhere beyond my self
beyond matter
beyond time
nameless
peaceful and light
and i wonder if this is how death feels
then i feel it all come rushing back
this body
this name
this ego
and it is all so heavy
so
heavy
and i don't know if i can bear it
again
and i don't know how to let it go
again
and i wonder if this is how birth feels