I wasn't ready (for Benji)

I wasn't ready
when you arrived
my heart still breaking 
for the ones who came before
I cared for you
but for a while
I struggled with how to love you
and then
we started walking together 
you got me up
got me out
and we found our stride
our days together 
bound by a beautiful rhythm 
you showed me the way
showed me so many wonderful things
I wouldn't have seen on my own
and 
I wasn't ready
for how madly I found myself loving you 
for how you shared your wild heart with me
for how you trusted me
became a part of me
and
I wasn't ready
for our time to end
for you to go
so sudden
so soon
I wasn't ready 
to walk on my own
without you
I don't know which way to go
but
I walk on 
for you
even though 
I wasn't ready

Benji

Our time with Benji ended abruptly last week. His presence in my life has been profoundly joyful and meaningful. And his absence profoundly painful.

Thank you for the walks. Thank you for sharing your wild heart and bright light. Thank you for everything you taught me. Love you, Benji. You are part of me always.