mama cat update

i saw mama cat again on the 15th.  after i'd fed 'migo and the creature in the morning i decided i'd go look around a little and see if i could find her.  i felt myself drawn down the goat road (the long driveway across the street from us---our neighbors at the end of it have a goat grazing business).  i walked down to the lowrimore's place which is only occupied when the family comes to vacation in the spring.   the lowrimore's is the perfect place for a mama cat to stash some kittens.  it's quiet with tons of hidey holes under the mobile home and in the little outbuildings surrounding it.  i felt she was nearby but i didn't see her.

that afternoon, a few minutes after i'd let the ducks out to forage something in my peripheral vision caught my attention and i looked down our driveway and across the street and there she was, sitting in the goat road looking back at me.  i walked down to the end of our driveway and talked to her.  asked her if she was going to bring her babies.  she meowed me a little and then turned and slowly walked down the goat road and up the lowrimore's driveway.  she stayed in the open the whole way even though she could have easily disappeared into the tall grass.  it seemed like she wanted me to know where she was.

i probably should have followed her but i didn't.  i felt like i needed to stay with the ducks and let them have their time to forage since i had just let them out.  when i got the ducks back in i mixed up some cat food and went to see if i could find her.  i looked and i called but she didn't show.  i walked home and put the food in the fridge, hoping she would come over later in the evening to eat, but she didn't.

i've been over looking for her several times since but haven't seen any sign of her or her kittens.  in a way i feel like i let her down.  i hope she and her kittens are okay. 

i had a dream last night that i was over at lowrimore's looking for her and saw a food pan on the ground as if someone else was feeding her.  maybe that afternoon she just came to say goodbye.  maybe she found somewhere she felt more comfortable and someone is taking care of her.  i hope so.